Botox Before and After – Eek!

Ok, I get it. Frown and laugh lines are a natural part of the aging process. However, this doesn’t mean I want to look tired and mad all the time. When I was in my early 20s, a very mature older woman told me I should start doing something about my crows feet (you know, those lines from smiling eyes). I was devastated. I was still a baby and maybe then a nightly eye cream would have been a nice addition to my skin care routine, but little did I know how this comment would have me forever scrutinizing my face.

I have had one very prominent groove between my eyes for as long as I can remember. When I was 28 years old, I remember talking to a co-worker about someday getting Botox. She waved off my concerns saying I was too young. Over the years, three other lines appeared. I’d dab on lotions and primers to help smooth things out but everyday my makeup would settle into these grooves and I would go threw my day with a permanent scowl.

I really started to consider Botox a few years ago but when I brought it up to some friends, I was almost shamed in considering the treatment. Why would you ever put a toxin in your face? 

Because I am not happy with the way I look.

It was as simple as that.

before botox

This photo was taken a few weeks before I joined on as a CosmetiCare Ambassador. For the last year, I have been working on Long Story Short and appearing in weekly videos on YouTube. I also was growing increasingly critical of how I looked. Call me vain but it made me unhappy.

botox 1

I knew that a Botox Cosmetic treatment was likely an option as a CosmetiCare ambassador and I was ready. Ok, maybe a little terrified. Not of needles because I have been through the medical ringer in the last seven years. Needles were nothing. However, I was worried about the possibility of something going horribly south. Like my eyebrows. Obviously, there is risk with everything and the lovely nurses at CosmetiCare walked me through the procedure and the aftercare.

botox 2

Those two parallel lines between my eyes were the biggest offenders. There are also four horizontal lines between my eyes and at the top of my nose from years and years of scrunching my nose when I smile. These are things you become keenly aware of when analyzing your face in mirror for 20 years.


The treatment was quick. Four itty bitty needle injections across my forehead above the eyebrows. My skin was raised a little at the injection site when I left but I stopped at the grocery store on the way home and no one looked at me like they knew what I had just done.

I thought the Botox treatment would be immediate. For two days I was able to scrunch up my face and make those frown lines, albeit not as easily but still managed. It was like I was testing the Botox. Did it work? It was about 3 or 4 days that I started to see things smooth out. Finally, my makeup wasn’t settling into those lines anymore and I looked refreshed. I did have what felt like a sinus headache for days after the treatment but it was mild and considered very normal amongst clients.

fresh face 2

It took me a few weeks to decide if I was pleased with the results from Botox. The Botox Cosmetic treatment had given me a little more lift in the eyebrow – normal per the CosmetiCare nurse – than I had expected. So, I wasn’t sure how much I liked that considering I was watching myself on YouTube being far more expressive with my eyebrows than I had before.

Yet when I see photos or video of myself post Botox, I am genuinely really happy with the way I look. Now, what should I do about those crows feet?

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Weekly Chatter: Botox Battle

As I sit down to write this week’s Weekly Chatter, I’m realizing I need to take better notes throughout the week because trying to bang out a post about my week without anything to really write about is a recipe for disaster.

So, let’s get into it. Or at least what I can remember of it.


Monday was a school holiday and it left me wishing summer vacation would hurry up and get here already. I am dreaming of the day where we don’t have a get-up-get-showered-eat-breakfast-pack-lunch-grab-backpack-and-go kind of morning. Here’s the thing, friends. My daughter is a late bird right now. This means, she doesn’t start school until 9:15 am. I can’t even imagine this crazed pace at 7 am. Remember how successful I was at a month of early mornings? Ugh, I better figure something out.

My lovely friend Sara convinced me to sign up for something called Whole Life Challenge. It’s an 8-week lifestyle challenge created by some CrossFit dudes. Look, she lost 22 lbs. in 8 weeks eating nothing but Paleo and exercising. Sold. I have been working with a trainer twice a week and I can definitely feel the changes yet I have a long way to go and you can’t out-exercise a shitty diet. I’m pumped – starts May 3rd.

My daughter’s school had a carnival with a silent auction. Tons and tons of things to bid on. Guess what I wanted most? Botox. I wanted it so badly but so did another lady. She was the very first bid, followed by 3 or 4 others, and then mine. Then hers. Then mine. Hers again. Mine again. I noticed she was hovering, waiting for me to walk away, and then she’d swoop in and outbid me by $10. I finally decided to concede figuring if I wanted Botox so badly that I should just seek it out on my own and not at the school carnival.

9021-OH update! Remember how I told you last week that I was reading Jennie Garth’s memoir? Ok, so yeah…it’s not great but one chapter really spoke to me and might have redeemed the whole book. She told about the demise of her marriage and writes “You need to get shattered to put yourself back together properly. The trick, though, is not to try to glue the pieces back into the same old places and in the same old pattern. The better way is to learn and grow and be brave enough to take on a new shape, a new outlook, a new wisdom.” I just loved this and found it super relatable.

Did you see Tori Spelling’s new docu-series called True Tori? Oh, man. I really felt horrible for her. A little part of me wonders if it’s scripted, especially after I saw this article but my mom heart ached for her. I do love me some Donna Martin. She was lovely when I met her in person a few years ago at the LA Times Festival of Books.




Well, that’s a wrap on this week’s Weekly Chatter. See you next weekend!